Spring: Let's Bring In Some New
As I write this, it’s the Spring Equinox, there’s a full Super Moon rising, and all manner of metaphysical wonders abound. I’ve personally always been one to shy away from Spring, seeing it as little more than a preamble to Summer, or as I refer to it: The Season Where I Don’t Stop Sweating. But I started 2019 with the intention to hate things less, so I’m giving this Spring thing a try.
One component of Spring I can get behind is the ushering in of what’s new. My stagnant, wintry, same-leggings-every-day-half-an-avocado-for-breakfast life is due for a change-up. I like the idea of not just a Spring Cleaning for my space (though thanks to Marie Kondo some serious baggage has left the building, both literally and figuratively speaking), but also a clearing for me. The me in my mind, in my heart, the inner monologue me who criticizes everything I do, worries that it wasn’t done “right,” who then feels guilty for feeling that things have to be “right” in the first place and then spends a lot of time feeling like crap. I think, as far as that shit goes, I’m done.
So I’ve made a “Let It Go” list. A list of everything around me, in my life, and swirling around in my head like dust and leaves when the wind swoops them, all the stuff that isn’t serving me, all the stuff that’s feeling bad instead of good. Everything I want to let go, is about to be let gone. I encourage you to do the same. It took five minutes and was actually pretty fun.
Online research will tell you that burning this list is a common practice, but since I fear fire and the legal implications of accidentally burning my apartment building down, I’m probably just going to flush mine down the toilet. I’m a water sign after all so in my opinion this is not without poetry.
The main thing is, I’m getting into this Spring thing. I’m letting go of the sadness I feel because I didn’t get to enjoy a proper snow. (I was literally sitting on a runway during the one amazing snowfall, massively delayed in leaving because of it.) I’m letting go of my fear of my impending summer electric bills now that I work from home. I’m letting go of feeling like I’m wrong all the time. Because when all of that is gone, I look forward to seeing what kind of wonderful newness will bloom in its place.
